You are listening to "Flying with Angels"

By: Na Leo Pilimehana

September 1, 2005 to September 30, 2005

Date: September 29, 2005
Time: 10:13 AM

Hi Brittany,

I thought about you today...

I was listening to a song by Rascal Flatts about a girl who died of cancer, and I cried because it reminded me of you and the life you lost.

You were such a beautiful person, and I wish you could've lived out the life you deserved. You and I were never really close friends, just acquaintances who said the usual "Hi, how are you?" in passing every once in a while. Still, what happened to you has affected me so much more than I ever thought it could.

Eugenia and all of your best friends and family are doing such a great job spreading awareness about teenage recklessness, and I've realized what a blessing you are to us all. You've taught so many of us to cherish our lives and our loved ones, because they are so very fragile. And although you are missed dearly by everyone, your life will not be wasted by this accident.

Rest in Peace, I miss you.
♥ Caitlin

From: shayna brickman
City_State: san diego,ca[4s ranch]
Date: September 28, 2005
Time: 06:21 PM


5 months already 4 days ago :'[ 

i still just want to wake up from all this so bad

loove you britt

sorry i have to cut this short:/

brittany star - fly HIGH in the sky<3


From: melody miller
City_State: rb,ca
Date: September 28, 2005
Time: 12:59 PM

i miss you soo much!  every nite i pray for your family!!  at the pop warner pep rally diane was talking about you and your sister started to cry it was soo sad!!!!

i miss you soo much i cant believe it!!!  well i have to go! I <3 u soo much my lil star!!!

From: alexa
City_State: mc in
Date: September 27, 2005
Time: 08:00 AM

star i miss brittany she had long hair like me...brittany was so pretty

Date: September 26, 2005
Time: 03:34 PM

Brittany, It's hard to believe its been five months. Seems like a lifetime ago that you left. You are so VERY missed. There are still so many tears. I don't think any of our hearts will ever mend nor will any of us be (or look at life) the same.

I just want you to know that I never stop thinking of you or praying for your family. Please hold the door to heaven open for all of us down here...we'll all be there in due time. Just be prepared for a million hugs and kisses when we all get there - because we can't wait to see your beautiful smile again and tell you how much we love you face to face.

God bless you, butterfly!!!!! Rest in Peace. <3

From: Danielle
City_State: Oceanside
Date: September 23, 2005
Time: 09:15 PM

Hi Brittany.

Tomorrow will be five months, and I have to say that not a day goes by that you don't cross my mind. While I struggle with the reality of how I was to you, I have to continue putting on a happy face for everyone around. You've changed me so much, I just wish it hadn't had to happen this way.

I was in the car with my mom tonight, and we were talking about you, about how tomorrow will be five months. Tomorrow is also my sisters 21st birthday, and while I'm going to be celebrating with her, I want you to know that I will have my time for you.

I miss you every day, and I know that you're watching over me. I hope I'm doing everything okay, and that I get to see you again someday. I love you sweetheart..

Danielle Pray

From: Leanne
City_State: San Diego, CA
Date: September 22, 2005
Time: 10:26 PM

Dear Starlene,

Words just cannot express the absolute pain and devastation in the loss of a child. It is not life's order; parents precede children in death, that is the way it is supposed to be. When I heard of the accident and subsequent memorials from my daughters, at the time they were in 8th and 12th grades, I cried and cried at the thought of a mother, you, experiencing the worst nightmare ever. We live not far from the accident scene, and each time I go for a walk or a run past Brittany's place, I leave a flower and say a prayer for her and you and your family.

I support your efforts, as I too experienced a situation where my daughter took one of my vehicles without permission before she had her license, probably on several occasions. It ultimately lead to an accident a half block from my house, but no one was hurt.

After Brittany's accident, my daughter expressed to me finally, how lucky she was and the realization that her actions could have been much more tragic. I can only hope that other teens realize this too. My part? I secure my car keys now and try to keep communication channels open. But I fear that is not enough.

My deepest, deepest sympathies for you and your family.

From: kayla
City_State: san diego, ca
Date: September 22, 2005
Time: 07:54 PM

hey britt i know your in heaven shining down on us all but i just wanted to let you know that no one has or ever will forget about you.

i miss you so much<3

From: Tanya Nicole Luxenburg
City_State: San Diego, CA
Date: September 22, 2005
Time: 05:19 PM

Hello all =)

Sorry I have neglected to write in here for some time. I've been really sick so I haven't been on the computer much. I'm aware S.T.A.A.R is sort of starting to kick off a little; with the club at RB and all. I can't be a part of the club, since I don't attend that school anymore...but I would love to be a part of the organization still and help.

I'm still re-grouping from being sick...I'm not all better yet...but I should be soon. I start driving next month, so I'll be more mobile. Let me know =)

To my many friends reading this...

I love you very much

I miss you Brittany...not a day I don't think about you.

Your picture is taped up on my mirror. I say hello to you every morning.


From: Elizabeth
City_State: San Diego, CA
Date: September 22, 2005
Time: 10:11 AM

Hey brittany!

i thought about you this morning! i was thinking of all the good times we had in geometry. i remember seeing you for the first time and thought you were the smallest person! I don't mean that in a bad way. So i hope you don't get the wrong idea! but after I met you, I began talking to you and jackie during geometry.

Even though I hated the class cause geometry is so hard, I always loved talking to you. You were my geometry buddy!! I remember you told me that you liked britney spears and I had saved some pictures for you on my computer but I never printed them out because it would have used up a lot of ink!  I'm sorry I never got a chance to give it to you! they are still on my computer by the way!

I also remember you telling me about your disneyworld trip for cheer and i was asking you all these questions about philar magic and you told me you could smell the banana cream pie! Remember the time we went to the assembly and i was singing the nightmare before christmas songs and you were getting mad at me for it! lol good times!

Then when second semester came I was glad to see that you were in my class again! I had my geo buddy back!! At that time you were the only person I talked to. Later on the seats moved and i started talking to whitney too. But i always talked to you still. I also remember our geo projects! I was going to ask you to be my partner but i always get scared to ask people to be my partner so i didnt. Im sorry i didnt ask you! But i remember your project and it was really cute! it was a candie necklace! you said in your presentation that your dad helped you! i thought that was cute!

And during the STAR testing i hated you (playfully) because you didnt have to come to school cause you were a freshman and i was a sophomore. just kidding i never hated you. Then the next year i was glad to see you in my math class again! i think you hated that class because of the teacher. but i liked it! thats when you met shala.

<3 Elizabeth

From: Kristen
City_State: poway, ca
Date: September 21, 2005
Time: 12:35 PM

hey there brittany!

how's heaven?  i cant wait to get there. anyway, i talked to your mom on IM the other day. s

he misses you so much. i made her a video with pictures of you. she loved it. i hope you saw and you loved it too. ill try to post it on here once i get it on a good downloading site.

britt, they all miss you. A LOT. i wish you the best and i hope that God is treating you well.

rip britt!


From: Tammy Rydahl
City_State: San Diego
Date: September 20, 2005
Time: 08:52 PM

Hi Brittany~

Your sisters were with me and my kids tonight and I had to share the funny comment Baylee made.

Last night we had a terrible thunderstorm and the girls were really scared so I shared with them the old story about thunder being God bowling in Heaven. Then Baylee thought of Brittany bowling in Heaven.

Then she said - "Brittany doesn't like bowling, but maybe it's pink and made of cheese then she would like it!!"  So we had this vision of you with a pink bowling ball bowling in Heaven in a bowling alley made of cheese!  I think you must have been laughing with us!!

We all miss you and your little sisters talk about you all the time!!

Blowing kisses to you in Heaven~


From: Tina Hamlet
City_State: chesterfield va
Date: September 16, 2005
Time: 03:32 PM

I came across this site from a girl's myspace who had left a comment on my friend Erica's memorial page. 

I just wanted to say that my thoughts and prayers are with Brittany's family and friends during this difficult time. I know that it's hard to get through a loss of your child or friend but through God's blessings and tons of love and encouragement you can get through anything.

I'm also interested in the STAAR program id like if you could send me some information about it. Once again I send love and comfort in this time of need.

Tina Hamlet

From: Lynn Vazquez
City_State: chula vista
Date: September 16, 2005
Time: 01:38 PM

Hey Brittany,

the dream I had about you saturday morning was the perfect gift for your dad,s birthday.

 I gave him your message and I felt very pleased to know that you chose me to talk to him about how you are; and by the way, the lap top computer is sitting on the desk in the living room, his birthday was missing you . We all took part in making his birthday cake; and I know when we sang him "Happy Birthday" You were right there with us ! 

He thought about you so much that day like every day, and the card that Geoffrey got from you to your dad was perfect!  We all cried we tried to make that day pleasant for him, but we all knew inside that he was sad. 

Cameron & Daniel had a good weekend they played, they cried, they hugged and they laughed. Daniel has one of the little bracelets and he looked down at it and gave it a big kiss! He also found a pink balloon and said it was yours. 

We miss you "BRITT" and I think about you every day.  We had so much fun with the makeup and all the glitter although your dad didn't think so ? But he got over it ,that day I saw how precious you were to your dad a special bond you share with him you both are so lucky to have eachother. 

We love and miss you and can't wait to kiss you again, and again and again!  See you again girly girl.

Always Love,  Lynn

From: Frieda Varela
City_State: Chula vista, CA
Date: September 14, 2005
Time: 04:52 PM


Wow, I've wanted to write in your guest book for some time, but just didn't know where or how to begin. But today is the day to do it.

I am a friend of your dad's (and of your little brother Cameron). I am so sorry for what happened to you, to your family and for all others who were affected by this. But you sure are a loved girl. I see pictures of your beautiful smile, the happiness you brought to your friends and family, and most of all I see how you have touched the lives of others.

Your dad misses you so much Brittany, but today has been such a great day for him, he is so happy today, and Cameron had his first day at the YMCA!! Can you believe that? I am so proud of your dad, and for Cameron! They have walked through so much together, and finally in the mist of the pain, I see the rainbow in the sky for them and your family!! Cameron was just elated when your daddy walked into pick him up from the Y, I could have just cried with joy to hear your dad say "did you just hear Cameron yell 'Dad' from the other end of the room". I know you feel the happiness I am feeling inside for your daddy and Cameron, and I hope you know how much happiness you still bring to them and others. Brittany even though you are not here physically, you are still with him and your family and friends, and you are a part of my family now too.

I have a son who is turning 15 next month and is eager to drive. He wears your bracelet every day, even while he played football. He would not take it off, he told the coach for "memorial reasons" and the coach let him play football with you there in our hearts. He talks about you to his friends at his school, and they have taken an interest in your website and in the S.T.A.A.R. program. Your dad is getting bracelets for some of the students there. Again, still touching the lives of others =)

I just wanted you to know about the progress your dad has made and what a great day it is for him today, and I believe in my heart you are here with us all, still bringing the little gifts to us all.

With love and respect for you and your family,

Frieda, Matthew and Angel

From: Valerie Arnaiz
City_State: Sun City,Ca
Date: September 13, 2005
Time: 10:06 PM

Hi Brittany, sweet little butterfly.

I come to this website to see you, to see pictures of you, your friends and family. I read the messages, listen to the songs, and when I get to your mommy's messages, my heart aches for her and wish, that I could just take some of her pain away.

She misses you so much, that I feel it in my heart and it hurts. I pray that you are doing great things in heaven, and I also pray that you would come to your mom, talk to her, smile for her, touch her and give her some answers to her questions she really needs to hear.

 Please shine down on her, give her the strength to make it through each day, she misses you with her whole being. Show her Angel, you are there....

From: Jordan Kay Franklin
City_State: Canfield, Ohio
Date: September 13, 2005
Time: 11:05 AM

to brittanys family and friends,

I am truly very sorry. I know that it seems like nobody could possibly understand what you are going through, i know it hurts more then anything else. brittany is in heaven, and she is watching over all of you, and she is ok. I know that she would want you all to know that. I never met her, but came across this web site through 'myspace" and it makes me hurt so bad, but her family has so much love for her, that she is smiling down at all of you, i get on this website alot, and i read these loving comments and i read about the birthday party, and she came back to the birthday party to thank her mom and dad for everything, and to tell them that she is ok. i will honestly be praying for you, and i am deeply sorry. i am a cheerleader also, and my all-time favorite color is pink, i love music, and my friends, i think brittany and i have alot in common, i just want you to know that you are all in my thoughts.

i dont know if this will help, but if anyone needs to talk you can e-mail me at anytime... its at the top. jordan kay

From: Alex M
City_State: Laguna Beach, Ca
Date: September 12, 2005
Time: 10:13 PM

I'm really sorry about your friend Brittany, It's nice to see that people are trying to raise money for a good cause on here. I wish you the best!

xoxo Alex M

Date: September 11, 2005
Time: 05:40 PM

Oh My gosh! I love the new pictures from the Chargers game! Baylee looks like a natural out on the field -- what an athlete at such a young age - and so completely adorable. Thank you so much for sharing. It's so nice to see Baylee with a smile from ear to ear!

Go Baylee Go!

From: Rebecca Wilner
City_State: Monterey Bay, California
Date: September 11, 2005
Time: 02:09 PM

"and even though i never really did know her. or even once come into contact with her, i feel as if i know her, and there will always be a special place in my heart, dedicated to her. Brittany Star Curcio."

I just read a posting in Brittany's guestbook and this quote stuck out for me. I know how this persons feels. Never met Brittany, but there was something about her, her story, and her family that I immediately became attached to.

Thanks for putting up more pictures from the Charger game. That must have been a very emotional day, but it seems that it was done beautifully.

RIP butterfly,
--Rebecca Wilner

Date: September 10, 2005
Time: 02:28 PM

i just watched the video that that girl made for brittany...the one with the little girl talking to her daddy and it made me cry.

it made me think of brittany and how much we all miss her. she was a wonderful person. and i am so glad to see that this site is still going strong. every time i visit this web page, i always think of her. and how special she was to so many people.

it makes me be thankful and grateful yet it also makes me miss her. and even though i never really did know her. or even once come into contact with her, i feel as if i know her, and there will always be a special place in my heart, dedicated to her. Brittany Star Curcio.

Date: September 09, 2005
Time: 11:49 PM


I am so sorry for your loss. 

I could never know how you are feeling, but I have a pretty good idea. I am so in awe of your courage and strength. You must be so exhausted. All the activities, you have done to honor your sweet child. I'm sure Brittany is looking down with great pride at a mother who loves her so dearly.

I think Brittany' families are such special people and I have never met you. Please find joy in life for your family on earth, you will one day be reunited with your beautiful daughter. Brittany was full of energy, and energy never dies.

From: Tammy Rydahl
City_State: San Diego CA
Date: September 09, 2005
Time: 04:20 PM


Thinking of you still all the time!!

Rest In Peace Angel.

Tammy Rydahl

City_State: wyckoff, nj
Date: September 09, 2005
Time: 08:17 AM

Star and Tony,

I can't stop thinking of you and your family and what you are going through. You are on my mind from the moment I wake, until I fall asleep each and every night. My heart breaks for you. If I could, I would trade places with Brittany without any hesitation...just to see your family and (most importantly your) hearts restored.

Brittany's passing is not fair, nor should either of you have to suffer the pain and loss that you are experiencing. I know that both of you are anxious to see your beautiful angel again, and the day will come when you do...and hopefully all your questions will be answered and you will find the peace you desire. God will make the choice of when that time will be, so please be patient -- and in the meantime shower Brittany's sisters and brothers with all the love you can muster. They need you SO desperately right now.

I will continue to pray for you both, most importantly that you will find some comfort until the day arrives when you both see your beautiful angel again. Please know how much we all care and how deeply sorry we are for such a senseless, tragic loss. Brittany will never be forgotten, nor will our prayers for you and your family every cease.

God bless you all,


From: Elizabeth
City_State: San Diego, CA
Date: September 08, 2005
Time: 06:22 PM

Hi! i saw the charger pictures and i was just wondering what they said on the back and the front. thanks!

We all miss you Brittany!


From: LynnVazquez
City_State: ChulaVista
Date: September 08, 2005
Time: 04:17 PM


You are so very, very much missed, we are all saddened that this tragedy has occurred to you, the choice that was made cost you your life and it has changed the lives of everyone that knows you.  Your parents suffer everyday without your physical presence can only imagine how much pain your mom is in; But I know that you are well aware of how much this has affected your Dad as well as your two brothers and little sisters they all suffer without you Brittany.

Your Dad is so very proud of you he is devastated and everyday has gotten harder, who says it gets better as time goes on ? Your little brother Cameron talks about you all the time he goes into your room and looks through your stuff and says how much he misses you, he misses how you would save him when Geoffrey would hold him upside down he also says that if you went to the doctor if you could come back.

Cameron and Geoffrey will never ever forget you they both will always have a void in their lives without their sissy.  Your father doesn't want to wait any longer to be with you, you are in his every thought he cries himself to sleep; he loves you from the bottom of his heart his life will never be the same he looked forward to being there when you graduated college to walking you down the isle to having grandchildren to getting to know your future husband all that gone it's like his whole life you "Brittany" ripped out of his chest and life doesn't have the same meaning anymore ! I know you want the best for your Daddy and he would give his life to see you again Brittany, your father will forever love his "Pumpkin" and he misses you and can't wait to kiss you again and again, and again

sweet dreams girly girl. Lynn

From: Rebecca Wilner
City_State: Monterey Bay, California
Date: September 08, 2005
Time: 02:50 AM

"She said to me last night I wish we could go visit Brittany in Heaven and then she said I feel her all the time in my tummy???"

Star, you wrote this in Brittany's guestbook on May 13th, (about Giavanna) and I keep on going back and reading the same entry form you. Since I found the video and it was posted on the website, I have gotten so many signs of Brittany's presence.

For example, I am living in Monterey now for college and the weather is too cold for butterflies, but earlier today this bright orange and black butterfly was following me as I was walking to class. It was resting on a beautiful flower bush, then as I walked past the bush and admired the butterfly, it lifted its wings and followed me for a little while. I am not sure what I believe in, but just thinking that could have been Brittany thanking me for my support and the video I found was enough for me.

I still think you, Gia, and Baylee often and pray Brittany is safe in Heaven.


Rebecca Wilner

From: Daddy
City_State: Escondido Ca
Date: September 07, 2005
Time: 11:02 PM

My Dearest Brittany,

I miss you so much! I miss your words, your smiles, your laugh and your kisses. Most of all though "I miss You"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There are no words, Only time keeps us from each other. I will see you again soon!


City_State: San Diego, CA
Date: September 06, 2005
Time: 04:04 PM

Hi Star & Family.

I didn't know Brittany, but my daughter goes to school with Gia. I met you and your beautiful family at Fin's just about a year ago. I jog past Brittany's memorial site almost every day and think of the anguish you must go through each day. Please know that I keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers in hopes that someday you'll see her again and find peace in your hearts and souls. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you.


From: kristen
City_State: poway, ca
Date: September 05, 2005
Time: 01:50 PM

i would like to be a part of the STAAR program. i didn't know brittany but my friend nicholas lowe died in a car accident as well and his death has taken its toll on me. i think the STAAR program is a very good way to get across to people about being reckless. thank you.

kristen clark

rest in peace precious angels

From: Mommy
Date: September 05, 2005
Time: 11:37 AM

Good morning Brittany,

Today is your mommy's Birthday. I feel such pain to not have you share this day with me. I have been crying for you all day!! It really hit me last night when I was trying to eat dinner and I looked up and saw the picture on the shelf above the breakfast table. It was all 3 of my girls with me blowing out my candles from my birthday last year. It just hit me once again with that wave of emotion that I will never have a picture of all 3 of my girls again on my birthday and how that today you will not be coming up to me and wrapping your arms around me and telling me “Happy Birthday Mom” I will never hear your voice ever say that again for the rest of my life. There is nothing “Happy” about that. There is nothing “Happy” about today at all. But yet I have to pretend when the other 2 girls come to me it is. This is another painful thing to go through, faking some sort of happiness to your other 2 daughters. When they can look right through you and see your pain.

People keep saying to me I don’t understand how you must be feeling. They are right they don’t but sometimes it not that hard to understand. Just think about this…. What would it feel like to you if you couldn’t spend your birthday with your child because she/he was dead? That’s really all there is to think about and that is what it feels like. It hurts a lot doesn’t it?? It hurts 98 times worse for me because it’s real….Everyday for me is more and more real.

I love you so much Brittany and I can’t stop wishing I could go back 4 ½ months ago and know what I know now. I would do ANYTHING in the world to change all this and because I cant I don’t know I can possibly go on everyday without you. So many things have been going on in my life and I just need you and want to talk to you so bad!!!

I can’t believe nor do I want to accept that this could just be over for us. It just gives me the sickest feeling everyday that I have to wake up and start another day without you. I don’t want to keep living my life without you. How do I keep doing this Brittany? You were my world and it just is so hard to not have you with me everyday to talk, love, laugh, hold you. I so desperately need to see you again. I’m so sorry this has happen to you it’s just not fair. I wish so bad it would have been me not you. I would never want to put any of my daughters through this pain but you had so much life to still live and I just can’t help feel such guilt for that. You had so many plans and dreams that you will never be able to make come true and neither will I for you. It just breaks my heart….. It breaks my soul….It breaks my existence….

I love you with all my heart and soul for the rest of my life….


From: Daddy
City-State: Escondido Ca
Date: September 04, 2005
Time: 08:35 PM

Hey Britt,

Today I thought of you so much, No less than every day though... Cameron and I go to breakfast most days before I start my day at work and his kindergarten class. HE SPEAKS OF YOU ALL THE TIME... He Misses you dearly!!! He knows what happened but he still hopes that you will come back home soon. All I can tell him is that you are always with him ( US ) I, your Mother, Brothers & Sisters miss you sooooooooooooooo very much!!!

WE Love you & Miss you!!!
Can't wait to KISS YOU!!! AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN!!!

Cameron, Daddy & Geoffrey

From: Sunday Weiss
City_State: oceanside, ca
Date: September 02, 2005
Time: 12:36 AM

This is a heartwarming, lovely sight, that reminds us of the love, strength, and importance friends, family and faith and a decent community have, during the good times, and in the sad ones. After looking at this sight, my son mumbled to himself, I wish I had a time machine, he has said that since he was a small boy when he wished he could go back and undo something so painful and sad. Your whole family has the most beautiful angel in heaven now to look over you, and this is the best way for people who only knew about the sad accident to peek in for the facts, and see Brittany as a person, and not just a statistic. This is a beautiful tribute that celebrates a life well lived and enjoyed, with a beautiful, strong and loving, blended family. We should all be so lucky to have had so much life, and love in such a short period of time.

God Bless

Sunday and Corey Weiss

From: rayni koelln
City_State: ca sd
Date: September 01, 2005
Time: 09:25 PM

poem for britt

From Up Above
by Jenn D Thomas

I knelt down beside my bed and said a prayer tonight
I prayed to have you back again so I can hold you tight

You left this earth to live with God way up above me
And although you're not here, friends forever we will be


For you gave me insight, kindness and love
And I'm positive you're still sending them from up above

As I said my prayer tonight I remembered your beautiful smile

I was glad someone else could enjoy it for a little more than a while


I know you are looking down and protecting me from harm

 While at the same time spreading your contagious charm

Until the day we meet again in the world up above

I must emphasize the word I feel for you; this word could only be "love"

I have now said my prayer for you tonight
You must have heard, because I feel you holding me tight
So before I lay my head down, and close my happy tear-filled eyes

 I smile because I know that this is not our final goodbyes


And I thank God for accepting my angel into his world of love

For now I know where the light is coming from: it's coming from Up Above

for my best friend brittany star curcio...i love you baby and always will


hey babz this reminded me of u ... i miss you sooo much i cant believe it

From: Shayna Brickman
City_State: san diego, ca
Date: September 01, 2005
Time: 05:11 PM

its gonna be hard for me to write this as im crying....

i saw the gravestone pictures and that's where my tears started. i still cant believe this happened and what's even worse is that my grandpa is buried in the same area. so it tears my heart up!

i cant believe its been more then 4 months since you passed away.

well im gonnna go before i start crying a river.  And im gonna go visit you right now by your memorial site

love you britt

rest in peace