You are listening to "Flying with Angels"

By: Na Leo Pilimehana


June 16, 2005 to June 30, 2005


From: Brittany Grant
City_State: San Diego, CA
Date: June 30, 2005
Time: 04:11 PM

Brittany,

Our year in Raptors Cheer was like no other!  You were a sweet girl with a good personality. We met at cheer and when you were in the accident I cried for a week. I got your wristbands and it makes me think of you and know that your watching me.

We drove by your memorial so many times and we left flowers there at least once a week. My sister is a cheerleader for RBPW now.

She misses you to even if she only saw you at Raptor games and competitions. Everyone misses you.  Someday we will meet again and God will be there with us watching and making sure we do everything right for our families.

You will always be in my heart.~


~Brittany Grant~
 


From: Cecily
City_State: San Diego California
Date: June 30, 2005
Time: 11:42 AM

Brittany~

You will never be forgotten. I remember keeping you company when you had the broken leg at cheer practice. R.I.P.
 

Love Always,

Cecily



City_State: Temecula, Ca
Date: June 30, 2005
Time: 10:09 AM

Brittany,

I miss you sooo much i never thought that this could happen to you. every time i look at pics. of you it makes me want to cry. We had good times in cheer. You will NEVER be forgotten!!  love you.

Always,

Ellie Henningsen


From: Sarah Shryock
eMail: surferbabe_scarah@hotmail.com
City_State: El Cajon, California
Date: June 29, 2005
Time: 04:02 PM

Star,

I just cannot believe what has happened. I come on this site so much and yet still every time i have to ask myself if it is really true or not, and why does life have to be so hard. After you guys moved away from Steve's house i was crushed because brittany was my best friend and I couldn't see her as much but i could still call her. After a while we slowly lost touch and only talked about once a year but that didn't change the fact that we were best friends. I just wish that i would have kept calling and hanging out with brittany and i regret that i didn't. Every day i see someone that looks like brittany or see something that reminds me of brittany and one time I even had a dream about her still being alive. I am sooo sorry for what has happened. i can't even imagine what you are going through and i feel so bad for Baylee And Giavanna. Baylee probably doesn't remember me and you might not either but thats ok i will never forget you guys nor will i ever ever ever forget Brittany!

Love, Sarah Shryock<3
 


From: Lexie Cantarero
eMail: LexiNator@yahoo.com
City_State: Rancho Cucamonga; CA
Date: June 29, 2005
Time: 12:47 PM

Brittany, Family, and Friends,

I didn't know brittany personally but i truly wish i would have.. i am on Fierce All Stars and my all of us are praying for you! we will be ordering your bracelets to show our support! you sound like one of a kind and have touched each and everyone of our hearts! your story has touched us dearly and we all pray for you! R.I.P brittany star

lots of love hugs and kisses


Fierce All Stars


From: Dana Daniels
City_State: Wyckoff, NJ
Date: June 29, 2005
Time: 05:14 AM

Star, you are truly my hero.

I can not even begin to imagine...

Again, I am so very sorry.

God bless you and your family.


~dana


From: Shayna
eMail: shayshay277@yahoo.com
City_State: san diego, ca
Date: June 29, 2005
Time: 09:35 AM


brittany,

i kant believe its been 2 months since you passed!

i FINALLY got ur bracelet in i was so happy u shlda seen me everyday after i put in the order i was always the one wanting to go get the mail which never happens! and when i went to check it yesterday i saw the envelope i dropped everything else and i was soooo happy i got it i ripped the package open and immediately put it on! this bracelet is NEVER gnna leave my hand so whenever i go to type or write something i will c it! and i just wanted to send some prayers to ur family!

we love ya BRITTANY come visit sum time

<3always,
 

shayna


From: Mommy
Date: June 28, 2005
Time: 08:25 AM

Dear Brittany,

It's been 2 months now since you have gone and it feels like 2 years. The time seems to move so slowly. My tears seemed to be even harder now. I can't stop crying everyday and I think of you every second of the day. It can be the littlest thing that I remember about you and it just makes me break down.

We shared so many memories, talks, laughs, and lots of hugs. We even had our share of terrible 2's and the terrible teens but through it all you were such a good child and teen. I'm so proud of you for who you became in your life.

Throughout your whole life I always felt there was something different about you and the connection we shared. You were the one that made me try harder in my life, to make me succeed through everything I felt was impossible. You always even as a little girl knew just what to say to someone to encourage them to be the best they could be.

Most of all we were always there for each other. Your love for your family and friends is truly amazing. You always knew what to say and what to do to make anyone smile. Your hugs always gave so much comfort to all of us to know how much we were loved.

Your silly personality and laughter is something I want to hold on to forever. I can remember so many times of us laughing so hard that I would cry...especially with the jets over Miramar. I think you told that story a 1000 + times!!!  Especially to me so we would relive it and laugh even more.

Your heart is filled with such love for people. You always felt so bad for someone less fortunate. No matter where we would be and you saw someone homeless you would give them all the money you had to help them. When you saw elderly people you would always smile and talk to them and offer them help if they needed it. I will never forget at Disneyland weeks before you died when we saw the little handicapped girl in her wheel chair talking to "Snow White" and "Aurora" we both just looked at each other and cried.

You have such a love for children and children adored you. You always were so kind to them and they just loved being around you. They were drawn to you where ever we would go. That's is why its so hard for your sister's and brother's right now too. They love and miss you so much everyday. They talk about you all the time. Baylee keeps saying "Mom would you do ------- to get Brittany back" and I say "Yes I would" and she says "Me too" she does that all day long. It's like she thinks maybe something would work. She wants to do anything to bring you home and change all of the nightmare.

I think that is the hardest thing as a mother that I feel is I CANT CHANGE ANY OF THIS!!! I have always been able to help you with school, cheer, friends etc... but now I'm helpless and there is nothing I can do. It is the worst feeling in the world as a parent to be so helpless. I was always there for you and now I can't do ANYTHING!!!

I still cant believe this could happen to you. I keep asking GOD please let me know somehow why?? I feel as a mother and father we should be able to know why?? It seems only fair. Why our beautiful, smart, kind, loving, good, loyal, talented, precious daughter??? WHY?? She and her friend made one bad choice. WHY?? Why couldn't GOD have saved you that night? Lots of people have really bad accidents and live? I just don't understand.....

I love you so much Brittany and feel I just don't really know how to live my life without you. We were so close and I feel so lost.

We were one and the same and I feel like I'm just dying inside. There is a void that just hurts so bad without you and the pain is so hard to feel. You were my life and I hurt so bad thinking everyday about the time that I no longer have with you. The things I will no longer see you do or grow into. You dreamed of going to college but didn't want to move far away from me and now we will never even have that experience.

I think about the time when you tried to open a jar and couldn't get it so you asked me to do it. You said "what I'm I going to do when I move out and your not there to help me" I said "you will learn to figure it out and if you can't you know I will always be there" Then we laughed because I said "you're never moving out anyways'!!  I'm so sad that we will never have the chance to even experience that in our future.

Our relationship is really something special.  You are the daughter I always dreamed of and I thank you so much for giving me that. I will cherish that in my heart always. I promise to always keep your memory alive in the S.T.A.A.R. Program and help teach other kids, teens, etc.. to be aware of reckless behavior. You will always have me to speak your voice to everyone about this program. You didn't deserve to die this way and I promise you that I will always give you a voice to be heard.

I will never let you go and I will always keep you alive in my mind, heart and soul.

I love you more then life itself.

Love always and forever,


Mommy


From: Ashley Nixon/Fierce Allstars
City_State: Rancho Cucamonga, Ca.
Date: June 28, 2005
Time: 05:16 PM

There are no words so I am just sending prayers and lots of love.
 


From: Cathy Esoo
City_State: san diego ca
Date: June 27, 2005
Time: 05:21 PM

My daughter Amy told me about Brittany's terrible tragedy and I have been following it ever since.

I have two daughters age 23 and 18. I would not ever want to have to go through the pain and grief that this family and friends have gone through and I am so sad .

Brittany's mom was a wonderful mom and so close to her daughter. She sleeps with her dreams and awakens with the thought and pain that it did happen and she was wishing it was all a bad dream.

I attended my daughters Rancho Bernardo High School Graduation this past Wed and I had Brittany's mom's prayers and thoughts in my mind a lot of the time and I thought she will not have precious moment that I had.

I wish I could take the pain away but I can not. I experienced losing my mom when I was 16 and all I can say to teens and parents is we only have each other and no one will love you as we do so take every moment and make it as special as you can.

Cathy Esoo


From: shelby
eMail: coachshelby@fierceallstars.com
City_State: alta loma ca
Date: June 27, 2005
Time: 02:06 PM

WE ARE ALL SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR LOSS.

BRITTANY IS A VERY BEAUTIFUL GIRL AND WE WILL KEEP HER AND HER FAMILY AND ALL OF CA IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. OUR TEAM WILL BE BUYING BRACELETS TO HELP SUPPORT YOUR FOUNDATION. GOD BLESS FIERCE ALL STAR CHEER


From: kristen
eMail: krissybaby87@cox.net
Date: June 27, 2005
Time: 01:27 PM

britt...

i never knew you but i know your friends. they miss you tons just like i miss my dear friend amanda.

i pray for you and your family every night and i hope that something better will happen. i feel like just seeing this website and seeing your myspace i feel like i have known you all my life.

i hope that you are in a better place and im sorry i couldnt make it to the tree planting ceremony. are you putting up those pictures?

 brittany star, you are loved and missed and im sure "i love you" is all she CONTINUES to hear.


<3Kristen


From: kari
City_State: LaPorte, IN
Date: June 27, 2005
Time: 01:02 PM

Dear Star,

You have never met me but I am Bobbi's sister. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I had a special friend die in a car accident 14 yrs. ago. And i still think of him everyday and I know he is looking out for me as brittany is you. Time does heal but you will never forget her nor should you, Just close your eyes and there you will see her smiling face! I believe that someday we will all meet again.

Thinking of you,

Kari


From: Coaches from FIERCE All Stars
eMail: FIERCEWebMegan@fierceallstars.com
City_State: Rancho Cucamonga, CA
Date: June 27, 2005
Time: 12:43 AM

Brittany Star and her family, plus her family away from home, the CA Cheerleading Family,

On behalf of Fierce All Stars we would first of all now like to say I am sorry for your loss.

It is a big deal to lose a child I am sure, but it is devastating when the child you lose is a pretty, talented, and courageous young lady. We would like to say our deepest FIERCE all star prayers are going out to the family of Brittany Star, and to the CA family as well. You will be dearly missed and cherished for as long as time endures.

We are sure that our girls on our teams will be purchasing BStar Bracelets very soon. They have been notified of this tragedy and are looking forward to supporting your teams as the season progresses, not only through love and encouragement, but also by wearing their BStar bracelets.

We love you all very much! Fierce All Star Cheerleading Coaches
http://www.fierceallstars.com


City_State: Baltimore, Maryland
Date: June 26, 2005
Time: 08:00 PM

Brittany, even though i never knew you it feels like i have known you forever!!!

Just by looking through your myspace and this website!!! Looking through your myspace gave me such a good idea of who you were, you were full of life and happy!!! I love the picture of you in the box lol!!!

I think it is so awesome that you cheered for the californa all stars!!! i cheer for the maryland twisters and your team went to some of the same competitions as us!!!

I know it sounds weird that im writting this directly to you, but i hope that some how some way you are reading this form heaven!!! I wish i would have known you in your life time!!! From looking at your myspcae i feel like we were so much alike. I hope when i go to heaven i will get to meet you.

I requested to be your friend on myspace hoping that some how some way you would except the request from heaven lol!!! (i know thats weird, but ya never know!) Well Brittany I really hope you are reading this some how!!! Look over your family and friends, they miss you a hole bunch!!!

<3 Marissa Armstrong

ps. I love you was all she herd (Brittany would understand)


From: kendra heathman
City_State: san diego, california
Date: June 25, 2005
Time: 10:29 PM

Comments:

i didnt know brittany but i,ve herd so much great stuff about her

i wish i could of known her.  i do know she is truly loved and missed by everyone and my heart goes out to all her friends and family

i send my love to all of u and brittany

you will never be forgotten brittany


From: elizabeth
eMail: termtoon06@sbcglobal.net
City_State: san diego, ca
Date: June 25, 2005
Time: 03:44 PM

i went to the tree planting ceremony and it was great. i think that was a great thing to do. we should put a plaque with her picture next to the tree. if we took pictures where should we send them? thanxs!

* Note from the web manager - please send your photos to brittanycurciowebsite@yahoo.com Thanks!!


From: Lisa Hollingsworth
eMail: jessandjer@cox.net
City_State: Alpine, CA
Date: June 24, 2005
Time: 12:54 PM

Comments:

Hi Star,

I can't stop thinking about you and the other day I ran into Liz and Ray at the grocery store. It made me want to some how say or do something to help. I found this story truly ironic. Keep up the good work spreading Brittany's story!

I was reading an inspiring story about a woman who had lost four of her children. She eventually attended a bereavement workshop in St. Louis. They suggested she ask herself the following questions:

  1. Do you believe you will see your child again?
  2. When you do, what will you say to him/her?
  3. What will he/she say to you?
  4. Do you think your child would be proud of what you have done with your life after he/she died?

These are powerful questions, and after answering them, she felt richer and more healed.

Here’s part of her story…..

Yes, at this point in my life, I think my babies would be very proud of their mom. I have mourned for them; I have grieved for them; and I now live life to the fullest because of them. I dedicate my life to these cherished babies; they've made me a better person which in turn makes me a better mother to my living children. I can see the changes, and yes, most are good ones. I didn't choose for them to die, but I have chosen to make my life better.

If you're newly bereaved or even have some distance from your loss, you may be thinking I'm nuts. I've realized that most of us (myself included) need a gentle nudge to take those first steps towards turning this huge negative into a positive. And you probably won't be able to do this for quite some time after your loss. That's okay!

Many bereaved parents are afraid of being disloyal to their babies by moving on or finding good things in the tragedy. I know I would have preferred to remain the person I was before my losses and have my babies here with me rather than go through such pain. BUT I didn't have a choice in losing my children. This doesn't mean I have to lead an unhappy, unproductive life. I can CHOOSE good things for myself and not feel guilty. I am more compassionate and caring because of my losses and I cherish these positive aspects. Despite these noble sounding words, I have indeed spent many days and months, and maybe even years, wallowing in grief. I finally had to WANT to make my life better.

To discover these changes (both negative and positive) requires introspection, courage and patience. You must be in touch with feelings that hurt the most; this is an important and necessary part of healing. And as I said earlier, you also have to WANT to see the positive aspects. It takes baby steps, and you can do it if you look. Discovering the gifts your baby has given you is definitely the rainbow after the storm.


From: MaiiGaiin Fontenot
eMail: lilmiss_diva05@yahoo.com
City_State: Eunice, Louisiana
Date: June 24, 2005
Time: 08:09 AM

To the family and friends of Brittany,

Hello, my name is MaiiGaiin and I happened to be visiting Varsity.com and came across the article about Brittany and her website.

After visiting Brittany's website I felt a connection even though I've never met her. I would just like to express my sympathy for the pain you all must be feeling, I too lost a cousin at the age of 14 in a car accident, so I feel your pain.

I also would like to tell her mother, Ms. Star, to remember to look to God and also remember that he doesn't put anything more on us that we can't bear. I also would like to say that God chooses us when he feels that we are ready, take Brittany for example, she seems like a very loving young lady whose job was to make everyone around her happy so God choose her to help watch over his children and help fight the good fight of faith since she was already doing so in the world.

Always remember that she is in your hearts and minds! I will continue to keep all of you in my prayers and I am glad to know that there is an angel named Brittany in heaven on my side with the my lord. I'm sorry if I freak anyone out with my beliefs, its just that I am a firm believer in turning to God for whatever problem I have and I feel like it's my duty as a Christian to share the work of God with all of you in your time of need.

Love,


MaiiGaiin Fontenot


From: Wendi
eMail: wendibeckman@yahoo.com
City_State: Maryland
Date: June 23, 2005
Time: 01:46 PM

Sorry for your loss. I too lost a child, I feel your pain.
 


From: NICKIE HIDALGO
eMail: NICKIESANGER@AOL.COM
City_State: SANGER,CA
Date: June 22, 2005
Time: 11:44 PM


TO THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS OF BRITTANY -


IM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS, I MYSELF LOST MY DAUGHTER ON FEB 12,2005 BY A NEGLIGENT DRIVER. 

MY DAUGHTER WAS KILLED INSTANTLY SHE WAS 22. I KNOW THE GRIEF AND THE LOSS YOU ALL ARE FEELING. MY PRAYERS GO OUT TO ALL OF YOU. AND MAY WE FIND PEACE ONE DAY TO BE ABLE TO GO ON.

GOD BLESS YOU

NICKIE HIDALGO


Date: June 22, 2005
Time: 07:39 AM

Not a day, hour or moment goes by that I am not thinking of you, Brittany. You are so very missed. Please watch over your Mommy, Daddy, Baylee and Eugenia extra closely...they are so very very very lost without you...I am worried about them. It's Gia's birthday soon too...oh honey, I wish you could just come back! So many things left to be explored, questions that need to be asked, hugs need to be given, I love you's that need to be said. Please know that you are so incredibly special to all of us. You always will be.

I am sending a billion hugs and kisses up your way -- and to your friends and family that need it most right now.

RIP beautiful girl. <3 <3 <3


From: Brittany Mccraw
eMail: lil2sexyswimma4u@hotmail.com
City_State: Lake City, Florida
Date: June 21, 2005
Time: 07:40 PM

Hey, This is a very sad thing.

I just had 2 ppl I knew from High skl die a few days ago. Both loved very much at our skl. *Cassie & Ricky* died because of fog. They hit a truck and both died instently. I know how it is when you love someone. I have seen this site many times befor and I just loved the song Flying with Angels. I wnated to play it at Cassies viewing but they wouldnt let me. *tears*

Cassie was a cheerleader and very fun from what I hear. N-E-Ways.. Brittany from what I have read seems to me like she desirved a second chance. She is a very pretty girl. R.I.P Brittany... & also R.I.P *Cassie & Ricky*

Hope yall all meet in heaven gods awsome world. I Love you guys so much... !!!! Thank you for letting me post this.

Brittany...U didnt desirve to die...ur friends shouldnt have done that....You wonder how I know the story well..My aunt owns the insurance company and told me the story. When I heard I cried.. R.I.P Everyone..


XoXoXo..Brittany A. Mccraw... from Florida


From: Danielle Parsley
eMail: Princess07Cheers@aol.com
City_State: Frederick. MD
Date: June 21, 2005
Time: 06:40 PM

Dear Brittney's friends and family-

I dont know birttany never even met her but when i went to this website all i could do was cry. i am an allstar cheerleader and have seen the California Allstars compete and then are Awesome! This has really touched me and helped me 2 make the right decisions. I feel as if i really knew her and i dont. i will pray for your family and friends. i wish that i could have met her she seems like a great person and i really wish i could go to the tree planting ceremony but im flying to california for vacation on the 27th.

With Love-
Danielle
 


From: barbara
eMail: barbara.eldridge@sbcglobal.net
City_State: michigan city in
Date: June 21, 2005
Time: 09:57 AM


DEAR BRITTANY'S FAMILY I HOPE THAT YOU AND THE REST OF YOUR FAMILY ARE DOING OK

I BEEN READING LOTS OF THE EMAILS IN THE GUEST BOOK THAT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS HAVE BEEN SAYING. ITS REALLY NICE AND I HOPE DURING THIS DIFFICULT TIME WILL EASE THE PAIN - IT WILL TAKE TIME

WE ARE STILL PRAY FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY STAR AND HOPE THAT SOME DAY WILL BE ALRIGHT.  I KNOW RIGHT NOW IS NOT A GOOD TIME FOR YOU.  OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. ITS A SHAME THIS HAPPENED TO YOUR DAUGHTER.

ME AND MY HUSBAND DENNIS ELDRIDGE WE BOTH LOST A FAMILY MEMBER TOO.  I LOST MY BROTHER AT THE AGE OF 8 HE DROWNED IN A FRIENDS POOL AND DENNIS LOST HIS FATHER OF A HEART ATTACK IN 1999 SO WE KNOW HOW YOU ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW.

ITS HARD AT FIRST BUT IN TIME THAT PAIN WILL HEAL SO MAY GOD BE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND GOD BLESS YOU WE WILL ALSO SAY A PRAY FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY TOO.

DENNIS AND BARB ELDRIDGE OF MICHIGAN CITY IN. PLEASE TAKE CARE


From: Matt Williams
eMail: afi_fan21@yahoo.com
City_State: san diego, CA
Date: June 21, 2005
Time: 01:00 AM

i am sorry if i posted this already but i forgot.

I dont even know her, but this website has touched me.

Its a tragedy that something like this would happen. I dont even know her but after looking at this website for 10 minutes i feel like i was one of her friends. She looks like an angel in all these pictures so i now know she is in heaven with the rest of the angels.


From: Jessica F.
City_State: SD, California
CheckBox: OK to Post Name
Date: June 20, 2005
Time: 07:01 PM

I wish that I there for the tree planting ceremony, but that is the day I will be having my Birthday party. Sorry! But I will remember Brit! We miss you our SHINING lil' star.


From: Courtney Alexander
eMail: rbzbabystar@yahoo.com
City_State: San Diego, CA
Remote User:
Date: June 19, 2005
Time: 10:59 PM

Hi brittany!

I can't even believe its almost been 2 months since you've been gone. I miss you so much and think of you everyday. I love you Britt! I had a dream about you last night for the first time! It was nice to finally have one!

Your beautiful and I hope your doing well in heaven! Please continue watching over your family and friends.

I love you so much Britt! RIP angel <333

love always, Courtie


City_State: San Diego, CA
Date: June 19, 2005
Time: 09:24 PM

'cause there's holes in the floor of heaven
And her tears are pourin' down
That's how you know she's watchin'
Wishin' she could be here now
And sometimes if you'e lonely
Just remember she can see
There's holes in the floor of heaven
And she's watchin' over you and me


Steve Wariner


I heard this chorus to a song while I was in my car and I broke down. I started crying and missing you like crazy. Brittany I love you so much and I hope you know that. I had an incredible season with you as my flyer. You were so talented. I love you I love you I love you!!!!

Star I love you I'll be there on the 24th. I love you so much! Stay Strong!

This seasons for you baby doll!!

Untill we meet again,


Jodi Basher



City_State: san diego,ca
Date: June 19, 2005
Time: 07:50 PM

Brittany~

I pretty much ran out of things to say but i just hope that your family is holding up on Fathers Day and that you blow and extra kiss down to your Daddy today :) another little girl died a few days ago. tiffany, she was only 12 and in 6 grade and i went to the small memorial they had for her at school on friday and it just hurts me to think that this poor girl didn't live a long life but you didn't either and you never expected a tragic thing to happen like this and i know that it's hard on everyone but losing you just hurts me the most!

i hope you comfort tiffany when she joins you in heaven, i know you will because your such a sweet angel~ fly with us all britt

forever my idol

R.i.P to my angel and my idol

love brittany lauren shafer


From: Anthony Curcio ( Daddy )
City_State: Escondido Ca
Date: June 19, 2005
Time: 05:52 PM

Baby Girl,

My Dearest Brittany,

Well as you know, today is Fathers Day. It has been a very lonely day not having you here to share it with us. Your brothers and I went to breakfast this morning and again you were deeply missed. I did take the photo of you and I with us and put it where you would have been sitting on the table. I hope that you were there with us.

Britt, I think about you constantly. You made me a father for the very first time. You made me the father that I am today.  I learned so much from you as you grew up into a caring & loving young lady. I found your video from your first birthday. You had so much fun eating your cake.  Sorry that I shoved it in your face. I really don't think that you minded though.

Thank you for the very special Fathers Day card. I know that you picked it out yourself through your mom. It was perfect! As are you! I will write again soon. You Are My Hero Forever!

I Love You & I Miss You, Can't Wait To Kiss You!!!

With All My Love,

Your Father, Your Daddy



From: Shayna
eMail: shayshay277@yahoo.com
Date: June 18, 2005
Time: 11:48 AM

i would like to join the STAAR program please!


From: Shayna Brickman
eMail: shayshay277@yahoo.com
City_State: san diego,ca
Date: June 18, 2005
Time: 10:56 AM

brittany:

i kant believe its been almost 2 months since you passed away. on thursday june 23 im gnna go by ur memorial to visit you! we all miss you so much n will always remember our brittany star curcio!!

i felt u last week the wind was so strong n i knew u were down here visiting everyone that u love..... love ya britt. n the thought that u r up in heaven being an angel brings a smile to my face

rest in peace my brittany star!

<3 always n forever


ShaYna


Date: June 18, 2005
Time: 02:11 AM


Tears in Heaven

Composed By:  Eric Clapton & Will Jennings

 

On 20 March 1991 at 11 a.m., Eric's son, four-and-a-half-year-old Conor Clapton, 

died when he fell from a window in a New York City apartment.

This song was written in his memory.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven

Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please

(instrumental)

Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more...
Tears in heaven

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven



Miss you baby girl. I also made this website for you earlier today.. http://brittanystar-curcio.memory-of.com


I love you so much angel!


Date: June 17, 2005
Time: 11:24 PM

Brittany Star-

I try and I try to get through each day with a smile on my face, Because I know you're in heaven. But it's SO incredibly hard without you here.

My heart aches for you, There's a huge gap without you here and i'm not sure how to make it go away, I don't think it ever will.  I still can't believe you gone. Why you?I don't understand. You are so amazing Britt.. Sometimes I wish I was in that car instead of you.. t's so hard not having you here. Just looking at your pictures brings me to tears,Y ou are so beautiful, inside and out.


No matter how many minutes,hours,days,years pass,I will NEVER ever ever forget you. When you left,You took a part of my heart with you, And even though you're not here right now, You still hold a place in my heart, and you always will.I know If you were here right now,You would tell me that you are just fine,and not to cry,I know you wouldn't want to hurt anyone.

You have changed my life in so many ways,thank you so much.Your birthday is coming up soon babygirl,I wish you were here to celebrate it with us,But I know you're in heaven celebrating.

Your spirit lives on forever,You hold such a big spot in my heart,you always will.and I can't even express my love for you Brittany..

Until we meet again,
I love you Angel

R.I.P Beautiful


From: Brittany Shafer
eMail: brittanyshafer92@hotmail.com
City_State: San Diego, CA
Date: June 17, 2005
Time: 06:52 PM


Brittany~

Wow its been almost 2 months now i guess and i steel have the same gut feeling as i did when i first herd what had happened. I regret not getting to know you soooo much more. Just saying hi during cheerleader and smiling at each other definantley wasn't enough, you will forever be in my heart and the blood in my veins!

i miss you terribly but i know that your'e flying high with angels and that your'e better off in heavan where things are perfect.I see Morgan everyday and i can't do anything but tell her it's ok, She misses you so much like the rest of us but always know that you ahve touched a place in my heart that can never possibly be forgotten. Thanks for being my rolemodel , idol, and everything i look up to ! cheerleading isn't the same without your smile but everyone i see smiling i can't help but think your in a little bit of everyone!

R.i.p. ANGEL and may god fly with you

i love you
brittany shafer
 


From: Lauren Brenner
City_State: poway CA
Date: June 17, 2005
Time: 05:55 PM

hey baby girl

what is going on well...last night i was sitting outside with my little sister and we were looking at the stars and i saw this bright one and right then and there i knew u were watching over me and i just got a big smile on my face knowing that you were the.....

my mom friends daughter passed away a couple months ago to and she goes to this camp for families that have lost loved ones and she was telling me that she met your mom there and i thought that was good cause i know your mom could use as many people as she needs right know and its even better because my friends mom lost her daughter in a motocycle accident she was only 18....but i know that you both are up there in a better place and doing great cause when i see that shinning star i know that its a sign that your doing ok and i thank you for showing me sign......

well there 3 more days of school which means finals :-/ not very funny well....my little sister's friend passed away today maybe you can meet up with her and show her around she was only in 6th grade and her name is Tiffany Molock R.I.P sweetie

well i hope your doing good ill be looking at the stars again tonight so please shine bright so i know you are doing fine well i think about you all the time and I LOVE YOU

my sn= elvesinthongs6 <please contact me if anyone ever wants to talk

LOVE ALWAYS LAUREN BRENNER


City_State: ca san diego
Date: June 17, 2005
Time: 05:05 PM

brittany..........i , we all wish that we would have known, what would i have done if i knew this was going to happen. I would have hugged you and told you all my secrets and than i would have said sorry for anything i had done, you lit up my world.

I love forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever. i promise, <3 you


From: Lealani Ancheta
eMail: ilovelacrosse23@yahoo.com
City_State: San Diego CA
Date: June 17, 2005
Time: 03:46 PM

Hi Brittany.


Its Lealani. We recently had the AVID banquet. I was not able to make it. But I know there was a tribute to you. I hope you are going ok up there in heaven. I cant wait to see you again. I miss you. I continue to think about you every day.

I miss you. <33 Lealani

RIP Brittany Star Curcio
 


City_State: San Diego California
Remote User:
Date: June 17, 2005
Time: 11:47 AM

Brittany,

I was looking at pictures from your funeral and stuff and just broke down in tears. everyone loved you so much. You were always so happy and bubbily and so sweet and kind to everyone. I remember when i went to your birthday party. it was so much fun. swimming and stuff. playing in a little toy house. and ooh spice girls! =) wow. time flys. I think about you all the time. I think about how precious life is.

I love and miss you Brittany..

love always,
Brittny Nesvig.


Savor every moment.

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
 


From: lexi
City_State: el cajon,ca
Date: June 17, 2005
Time: 11:06 AM

hey brit! sorry i havent written in a long time. i still come here everyday. i miss you so much it hurts. i love you so much and i'm sorry i never got to say goodbye.

i was looking at your myspace and i keep seeing all these people saying that they have dreams about you and i am sooo jealous because i would love to have a dream about you so i know your thinkin of me and so we can say goodbye..at least for now because i know i will meet you up in heaven someday. but i found this quote and i thought of you...

"if tears could build a stairway & memories were a lane i`d walk right up to heaven & bring you home again.no farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye, you were gone before I knew it, and only God knows why. my heart still aches in sadness and secrets still flow. what it meant to lose you, no one will EVER know."

i love you brit!!! please come visit me!!


~lexi


From: tanya luxenburg
eMail: xoxo_sweetness@hotmail.com
City_State: rancho bernardo, california
Date: June 17, 2005
Time: 12:07 AM

hello my love.

=( i really want to go to your tree planting on next friday....but unfortunatley the 24th is my last day of school. i'll see if i can get out early...i dunno

but i love you, and i think about you every day


From: brittany
City_State: san diego
Date: June 16, 2005
Time: 07:10 PM

brittany star!

i miss you so much its crazy. i have been thinking about you SO much today & i cant stop crying! i just keep asking WHY!?! i dont understand how this could happen to you!! you were such a nice, innocent, sweet, caring girl! you made ONE mistake, JUST ONE! and now you will have to pay for it forever!

i just dont understand..kids do things like that everyday, kids that dont care about anything, kids that hate life and NOTHING happens to them! you loved life & you were such a good kid..its just not fair.

My parents and friends tell me that it will get easier as time goes on but everyday it just gets harder! i just wish God wouldnt have wanted you up in heaven so quickly..i wish you had more time down here.

i love you brittany star curcio, i will NEVER forget you & that is a promise!!! <33333

oh, and please Brit take care of your family! they need you!


From: CA friend
eMail: cheergurl329@aol.com
City_State: san diego, california
Date: June 16, 2005
Time: 04:16 PM

Brittany. your mom came into practice the other day, i think its really great what shes doing in memory of you. i know before i make any decisions i think of what happened to you and how something like this could happen to anyone.

I didnt get a chance to meet u but i remember sitting in front of u on the plane to florida on the way to nationals, and you seemed like such a fun person and so pretty.. u and elizabeth were annoying the girl next to you by making the arm rest squeak, she got mad lol.

Its a lot different this year at cheer with out you i just wish i could have gotten to meet you because i think we could have become friends.

This seasons for you brittany. rip .


From: Cassie
eMail: cbienvenue@celebritycheer.com
City_State: Salem, NH
Date: June 16, 2005
Time: 09:29 AM


To Brittany's family, friends & coaches & teammates at California AllStars -

We wanted to take a minute to tell you how deeply sorry we are for your loss of Brittany. Our cheerleaders & parents at Celebrity Cheer will keep all of you in our thoughts and prayers. This website is such a wonderful tribute to her.

We recently lost one of our cheerleaders also in a tragic car accident & can sympathize with the pain you are all feeling. Like Brittany, Laura was an amazing person with so much to give to this world. Today is her birthday & we just returned from her Memorial Service. Driving home, we could not help but think of Brittany as well & the sadness all of you must feel.

From reading your website, it sounds as if Brittany's friends at CA are doing many of the same things as Laura's teammates did in honor of her. Our CoEd team has Laura's initials embroidered on the backs of their uniforms and there is a tribute to her on our website. If you'd like to visit, it's www.celebritycheer.com.

We felt so fortunate after Laura's death to see how the cheerleading community and other all-star programs supported us & encouraged us throughout all of last season. Although it did not erase the pain we felt, it certainly helped us to stay strong & persevere. One allstar gym even competed in Dallas with red ribbons tied to their shoes in memory of our lost cheerleader. The kindness that others expressed to us was so incredibly thoughtful & amazing. It's obvious that the cheerleading community is responding in the same manner to the loss of your very special athlete. I am writing this to let you know that although we are all the way across the nation, our hearts go out to you & we will keep Brittany & her family in our hearts along with Laura.

Best of luck to Brittany's teammates as they begin their new season. We look forward to seeing California AllStars in Dallas this season & our cheerleaders and teams will be cheering you on.

Sincerely,


Cassie from Celebrity


Date: June 16, 2005
Time: 12:57 AM

baby,i miss you more than you will ever know. I can't wait until i get to see your beautiful smiling face again! these lyrics describe exactly how i'm feeling about you, my beautiful butterfly!

i love you little star!

Sarah McLachlan
"Angel"
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it OK
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here

You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here