You are listening to "Flying with Angels"

By: Na Leo Pilimehana

Saturday, May 28, 2005

From: Mommy
Date: May 28, 2005
Time: 09:45 AM

My baby girl,

I have been having the worst time right now without you. I feel so sad and lonely...I'm just so lost! I have had so many moments lately that I think this is not real...she is coming home, she is in her room, she is right here! It feels so real I believe it and then your accident scene keeps coming back to my head and tells me no your not this is real!! Its like I just keep feeling the pain all over again from the day I got the call and found you.

People keep telling me "time will ease the pain". I'm finding that is not true because everyday without you I feel worse and it hurts me everyday that I have to wake up and start another day without you.

I lost so much when I lost you. My best Friend, My baby girl and my beautiful daughter.

There is nothing that will ever replace the void I feel without you. My soul is broken and my heart is shattered. I had an incredible journey with you my love in the short time I had you and if I could do ANYTHING at all to change any of what has happen to you I would. I would give up everything I have and have nothing if it meant you could walk back into my life.

It just seems unfair that your life was taken when you made one bad decision. Yet I still don't even know that you made the bad decision...will I ever??

All I do know is that my life will forever be changed from the moment I found you and I will no longer have a future with you, nothing from that day forward, it was over! It kills me inside and I don't want to live my life without you. I just feel so empty.

I do want you to know that you were the best daughter, sister, friend anyone could ever have and we all love and miss you so much.

Everywhere I look I see your beautiful smile and eyes. Your eyes seem to look right through me now as if your trying to tell me something. I only wish I knew what you wanted me to know. We always had such a connection and I know you want to talk to me as bad as I do you. I'm so sorry if this is hard for you too honey...I would never want you to have any pain. I know you would of never done anything like this had you known of the danger and the pain we all would be feeling. You were such a good girl with a heart of gold. Its just not fair!

Your love for everyone and anyone was something I have never seen in a person. I'm so very proud of the person you are. I know you said I was your hero but truly you are mine.

I love you just doesn't even say what I want to express and how I feel about you. Those words can't even cover all the love I have for you and feel in my heart. There will never be a day that I don't long for you and the life we had.

I Miss you so much my little star... you are the "wind beneath my wings"

All my love to you now and forever,


From: lexi
Date: May 28, 2005
Time: 04:10 PM

Hey brit~

So tomorrow i'm going to go see your mom and your sisters and Greg. I'm really excited. i haven't seen them since the funeral. But i'm gonna go look through your room. And prolly have a good cry. Except when i cry tomorrow, i bet it will be because i'll be remembering all of our good memories and how we wont be able to make anymore. But i will never forget the ones we had.

I'm going to put something in your room from softball. It was my first year playing high school ball, cuz it was only my freshman year. but we got these ornament thingys and it says my name and my number so i'm going to hang it somewhere in your room.

Well, i'll probably write tomorrow after i see your mommy! and i promise i will take care of her for you!!! i love you!

~ lexi

From: Ana & Stephanie Sundell
City-State: San Diego, CA
Date: May 28, 2005
Time: 04:07 PM

To the wonderful people who created this website. Thank you so much for this gift. This truly is a great way of helping us express our thoughts & emotions for Brittany.

Our prayers are with all of Brit's family, especially Baylee.

With all our love always,

Ana & Stephie

From: Rebecca Wilner
City_State: San Diego, Ca
Date: May 28, 2005
Time: 03:51 PM

I went to the site of the accident today. I saw that her family took home the pictures left by friends and family. As I parked my car on the side of the road, I could not stop the river of tears and they flowed down my cheeks. What surprises me the most is that even though I have never met Brittany, that her death has affected me so much. Now, whenever I get into a car, I say "Buckle up for Brittany." I'm not sure if she had her seatbelt on or not, but even so, I say this now every time I get into my car, or into a friend's car.

I've spoke to a few of her friends through Instant Messenger and it is clear to everyone that Brittany's memory will never fade.

Star, I read in your last comment that people tell you "time will ease the pain" and I know how you feel, because I didn't believe this either. Today, May 28 2005 is exactly 2 years since my Nana Marilyn lost her battle to Colon Cancer. Tonight, at 10:23pm 2 years ago, I got the phone call that the person I loved the most and looked up to the most was just taken from me. And 2 years later, I am still crying. All that eases the pain is thinking about when I will see my Nana again in Heaven. I cry that she will not be at my college graduation next year or at my sister's high school graduation next month. But I also know that she is no longer suffering. Brittany is in no pain. She is with the Lord now and no harm can come of her. There is a reason, which no one knows, that He wanted her in Heaven. I wish I had the answers, I wish I could help you through this difficult time. I wish I had some help through my difficult time as well.

The lost you are going through will change your life forever. Tonight, I will be playing "Flying With Angles" from this website, Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton, and "Slipped Away" by Avril Lavigne. Here are the lyrics to "Slipped Away."

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same

Na na la la la na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you

RIP Brittany Star Curcio and Nana Marilyn.

---Rebecca Wilner

To Brittany's family and friends - I hope this brings you comfort. God Bless. Anyone can e-mail me or Instant Message me on AIM: CAsunset143

From: barbara&dennis eldridge
City-State: michigan city in
Date: May 28, 2005
Time: 12:49 PM

to the family of brittany

we are so sorry to hear what happen to her our thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

may god be with you and god bless you. i know what you are going threw. we both lost a love one too and we know its not fun losing someone you love and look up to . please take care and remember may god be with you during this difficult time .

mr & mrs dennis eldridge

From: Stephanie
City-State: San Diego, Ca
Date: May 28, 2005
Time: 12:35 PM

Hey Brittany,

I wanted to take a moment to share this poem with you... it was written by a friend of mine and was dedicated to my mom who just past away this march, the first part or the poem does not match but the second part fits you perfectly...

God saw you were getting tired
And a cure was not to be,
So He put His arms around you
and whispered "Come To Me."

With tearful eyes we watched you,
And saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.

A ***golden heart*** stopped beating,
Hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He only takes ***the best.***

Brittany you had a heart of gold, you WERE the best. Everyone misses you dearly. We shall meet in heaven one day but until then take care and have fun with the angels.