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By: Na Leo Pilimehana

Friday, May 13, 2005

From: Michele
City_State: San Rafael, CA
Date: May 13, 2005
Time: 07:39 PM

Dear Star,

I hope my message brings you some comfort today.

Gia is REALLY feeling Brittany's spirit, through her Solar Plexis Chakra. The Chakras are our energy centers in the body. The Solar Plexis Chakra connects us to our Lord and God the Father and the Universe.

The Solar Plexis is directly in the middle of the tummy area. So, Brittany is really connected to her tummy.

I just read all your letters today and I'm crying again for you. Please be well and just take it one day at a time.

If you need help, it's good to find a Christian grief counselor to talk and just cry...Take the girls too. These people have experience to help your family grieve.

With all my LOVE and PRAYERS for you daily,


From: Giavanna
Date: May 13, 2005
Time: 05:24 PM

Hi Sissy,

I wish we could come visit you in heaven. I miss you so much. I want to give you a hug and kiss.


From: Baylee
Date: May 13, 2005
Time: 05:09 PM

Dear Sissy,

I love you so much. It broke my heart when I heard that you died. I'm very sad. I wish I could see you. I'll remember all the good times we played and went to special places until I'm up there with you. I miss you so much.


From: Mizz Missy
Date: Friday May 13, 2005
Time: 04:12 PM

I dont even know you. But i can see a lot of ppl love you. I hope you watch over all down here and warn the ppl in trouble. Welcome to H.E.A.V.E.N. Brittany.!!

Mizz Missy

From: Mommy
Date: May 13, 2005
Time: 02:18 PM

Hi Baby,

This has been such a hard day for me today. Everyday is hard but it just seems to get harder everyday although everyone says time will make it easier it doesn't for me. It only makes it more real that you are not coming home...I don't see that wonderful smile flying through the kitchen after cheer practice saying "Hi Mom" with that comforting hug that your home!! I don't get your calls at lunch time and after school to check in or just because you missed me and wanted to say Hi and I love you.

We all miss you so much Brittany! Baylee is trying so hard but is having such a hard time without you! She sleeps with one of your T-shirts every night and it still smells just like you!!!

Giavanna doesn't really understand why you aren't here? She keeps thinking you are just going to come back home from where ever you are at. But you can just see the sadness in her that is seems a longtime? She said to me last night I wish we could go visit Brittany in Heaven and then she said I feel her all the time in my tummy???

Your friends still come and call all the time. They are wonderful kids and they loved you more then anything. They are all taking this so hard and miss you so deeply.

Wow, Brittany how life changes in a second. My life will never be the same and I long for you so much I don't know how I will ever begin to heal.
I try everyday to figure out how to survive every minute that goes by. My mind is racing so hard right now there is not a second your not in my thoughts.

I want to believe that you walk by my side right now but its so hard not to want to feel you and hold you. I beg God everyday to Please just give me one more chance. I would do anything in the world to change all of this and have you here in my arms.

I still feel your hand on that last night and when I placed my hand on your back to feel you breathe...and there was nothing...I will never forget that feeling...I cant even explain to you my devastation, loss, fear, I felt as if my life was over... I still do.

I really don't know how to live without you...were so close and our relationship was unreal for a mother and a daughter.

I will cherish every memory, every moment, every breathe we shared for the rest of my life.

I love you so much my little Brittany....


From: Steve Mumma
Date: May 13, 2005
Time: 01:09 PM

Hey Britt..............

There is something special I wanted to share with you that your little sister Baylee showed me last night. She has a drawer in her dresser where she is keeping all kinds of art work, a diary and a beautiful shirt of yours that she has decorated with lots of bright shining stars and hearts. That was so touching to me, seeing this from your 6 year old sister. She loved you so much and I know that the feeling was mutual towards her. You were such a great teacher to her.

I know you will be looking over Baylee and the rest of your family and friends and help us get through these tough times. I can just see your Bright smiling face shining down on us now..

You've got to be the most BEAUTIFUL angel in heaven!

I love you & miss you..............Steve

From: Michele
Date: May 13, 2005
Time: 11:29 AM

My Dearest Star, Baylee, Giavanni, Tony, Greg, Steve, Cameron, and Geoffrey:

I am praying for you every day. I wish I could hold you and comfort you while you weep. On Mother's Day, I cried for you and for your loss of your baby girl, Brittany. She was truly remarkable and beautiful.

Words cannot make it better, but I know that the Lord's love will protect you from the pain. From your note about "fate" it sounds like Brittany had a very close relationship with God, and that she trusted in our Lord's promise to eternal life in heaven with Him.

You will always be in my thoughts and prayers.

I hope that you and the family are able to make memory boxes, so you can keep Brittany's legacy alive.

From: Mommy
Date: May 13, 2005
Time: 06:11 AM

To all Brittany's Family and friends,

I wanted to post something that I found Brittany had written on an English Assignment. She received an "A" on the assignment and a note that said "Wow, great job Brittany" It was an assignment I believe to be about a war and people dying. There is a section of this assignment that she wrote that really is chilling. It goes like this.....

Part II
"I think I would find myself trusting luck, fate, and taking chances because I believe that everything happens for a reason"

As you can read above, Brittany seemed to want to live life trusting and dealing with whatever fate would bring her way. This was amazing to me she wrote this. I felt almost as if she knew someday this might happen to her??? Maybe a sign from God? Not sure what to believe, but I guess I'm just wanting to have an answer to the awful aching feeling WHY???

One of my many famous lines to Brittany was everything happens for a reason. Now I see she believed that more than anything.

I love you so much my Lil Star and this journey without you is so incredibly lonely!!

All my heart to you forever....Love you always and forever....Mommy